iamthebloodywalrus: bruising-bones: I don’t understand why people enjoy this book. It was one of two books that I can honestly say were a struggle to read. :/ ^^ Agreed. This is the worst book I’ve ever read in my life probably.
found out my sisters having a baby today

and its not even with her boyfriend.

my moms going to watch it.

i cant, i just cant, we’re going to fight as she trys to make me watch it, i’ll be pushed in the dark, their going to ignore me, my parents will scream and yell, my sister will bitch at me.

icantdothis.icantdothis.icantdothis.

im sick of being strong.

my arms all fucked up, im trying to stop i swear

my eating habits have gotten better.

my grades, well of course im trying to be perfect.

My mom just lost her job, and now my sisters pregnant. what else could go wrong?

i will keep silent about everything thats going on inside my brain, and on my body, because after all, now its all up to me to be the perfect child.

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fragileminded: thinandtaut: gpoy. I second that.
tooyoungtobeempty: howtovisualizeyourweakness: This is how awful I look right after purging, with no make up and generally feeling like shit. So don’t tell me I’m beautiful, I know I’m not You’re actually stunning, I thought it was a photoshoot.